School reopen liao. It would means i need to face my java module again. Well still kinda worried about this module cause looking at hw others are progressing at a much faster pace made me worried hw i would progress. The current two things that i really wana do is to excel in studies so that it would no longer be a burden to me n to slim down n get fit. Currently i think the only two module giving me a really big headache is enterprise resource planning n java ba.

Well i just told my mum that i need to have my hair cut tml and her reply was so negative. I usually cut my hair in a months time but she should already have known but every month when i wana cut my hair she will like give me a "black face". Why cant my parents just understand me. Here i m already going to the cheapest salon to have my hair cut at only 8 bucks whereas others is like 10 and above. And the comments she gave is like "U don even look like u had ur hair cut" whenever i came back from a salon. I'm already in poly, cant i even have the freedom to do wad i wan??? This is really getting on my nerve.. sigh.

Hey hey hey!!! Today's HIGHTLIGHT, if any1 who wish to listen to PA youth co de recent concert de music which december 06 de concert, pls go to imeem.com and search for payco. Go to the first post by anne, music no. 2 to 12 is our concert music. Btw the pai gu is played by campus superstar mei gui wor, haha. Although no video but got sound la... haha. Very nice wor.

Hmm i went over to look at my friendster today, hmm... dono why only JC ppl attracted my attention so it's like i think most of my friends went to jc??? I nt sure. Jc and Poly, which is really better leh. No one knows unless we have a debate to fight for each type of education. Does going Jc gain more fame than going to poly? It seems so. Although by this year, there are many students who can actually go to jc chose to go for poly instead, even single pointer ppl chose to go for poly but it seems like going to jc is still the "big thing" among ppl nowadays. Hmm... poly is indeed getting better as time goes by. I think partly is becasue of my church also ba. Kind of find that majority are from jc or graduated from jc de. Top jc somemore. Lolx. Dono why sometimes this matter just affect my mood also. Dono hw to explain, it's just so weird.

Holidays ending soon!!! Seriously i don look forward to returning to school, rather stay at home and rot. Ha! Went to west mall with vian, na and the rich guy william. Lolx. Hmm we went to a chinese restaurant to have our lunch follow by 2 games of pool and lastly movie. The whole outing was really interesting and fun. Haha. N also thanks to william who treated us to lunch and swensen ice cream, haha!

Seriously i think i'm getting heavier this holiday and desperately finding ppl to play badminton with but couldnt find any and the holiday is ending soon. Kinda disappionted. Have been spending most of my time in church this holiday and also got to know more bro n sis in christ, haha which is a really good thing for me. I hope i can soon save enough money to buy myself a cheap cheap er hu and a music tuner. Lost my first tuner during my first pa concert and my mum refused to buy one one so have to use my own money. Haha. Hmm well i hope maybe a few years down the road maybe i can have a new cello too, haha. My current cello has been wif me since ending of sec 1 i guess or beginning of sec 2. Quite long le. Last time my bro de piano kept changing de cause that time our finiancial status was kinda good but nt anymore. Haha. Cant imagine myself keep replacing my cello one by one. Haha.

William arhx william arhx relax la. I busy ma somemore no chance to use the net. Just came back from CG17 retreat today. Well i should say it was much more better than i thought. Did get to know more church members which i think it's a really great thing for me. Super tired now. To think that tml i need to be in church by 8am, that's like too early for me, need to leave home at seven plus.

I actually thought of having our own church basketball team and during the first day of the camp, Norman brought up this issue. It was quite a coincidence. He mentioned "Ah Bong" asked him if he wants or not. But well, i guess now with me n 2 of my friends, we will have enough players for the team but nt sure if it will really be set up or nt. Also through this camp i actually got to know a little bit more about some of the church members. Dono why but somehow i agreed with hui ting that being in church is really great and i guess it became my "hobby" too. Haha.

Went to church today. Very quiet, lol. Wonder if it's because i too long nvr go chinese side le so nw find it very boring to go there. It's still so much better wif gab von vian n NANA lol sitting beside me. Actually i don like to leave church that fast de. I wan more fellowship wif church members. haha. But today my grp nt here sia so went home straight den nw nth to do, listening to my concert songs. Lol!

Btw i went back to payco today, lol. Very guai, didnt ran off. Hmm... i saw a little cellist boy who played cello since pri sch holding on to a score which i find it very hard. I asked him "wa u wad grade arhx?" n he replied "need grade to play de meh?".... if it was u wad would u think? lol!? But but but i think i improved a little bit le sia. lol thks to the church for asking me to play last min songs so nw my sight read got a slight improvement. A good thing to me. Haha

Just gotten back my PWA test, flunked like shit. I just cant accept the fact i failed. I really admired those who failed and could stil smile n play. If only i can be so positive. Since sec sch i always wanted to be the best but just nvr once gotten the first or something.

Everybody have something that they have to leave behind, there's no use looking back, so i guess i just have to look straight. Just couldnt forget the fact that i failed my test. Even if i pass the re-test, my marks will only be 50. Sigh. When i was seeking help from others, they told me they dono and stuffs like tht or i didnt study for it, in the end they actually got very high marks. It just show how those friends i know are. Some even shouted out "walau! i got only 79!". WTF!!! Cant stand this kind of ppl. And also watching myself always scoring lower than others, it just demoralise me. I want to be the best so that i can help others as well, i know ppl just wont help me esp classmates or seniors. THat's the reason why i wana top so that i can help ppl like the current me. Here i m already feeling very down le n there, i will be having a test again later. I just hope i can achieve the results i want. I don wish to see my GPA lower than most of my classmates. Since young i'm always the middle or sometimes even worse the last few. Nver once had i been one of the top. Although after failing so many times, i know the feeling of failing and how disappointing one would feel, but still as always, i cant accept the fact. Why i'm always nth compared to other ppl. Sigh...